Yeah, Baby!!!!

I was watching a baby eating and suddenly realized that a baby holds all the hints we require for success. A baby has sucking, slurping ,drooling and pooping skills. I mean, lets get real, in order to be successful you have to suck up to anyone that can affect your progress / career. How many lies have you told to advance your goals???? Slurping is just an unrefined way of ego stroking your superior whatever which is necessary for success as we are all a bag of insecurity. Drooling tells everyone that baby has goals and objectives in life. How many times have you drooled over something / someone??? Random pooping is a precursor to general sloppiness which gives your manager, superior, lover, a warm feeling of purpose in a chaotic and random world. Even our music gets involved. Isn’t there even a song out there with the words "Sucking up is hard to do"????

Waste Not, Wasted, Wasted Life

Life is very confusing. When you’re young and impressionable, your mother tells you to waste not. This generally means to eat up whatever is in front of you or in other words clean up your plate. It usually is accompanied by a lecture from your mother on the fact that other parts of the world are starving. I don’t quite understand why cleaning up your plate helps the starving world now that I’m older and have time to think about it. I suppose it lessens your feeling of guilt in as much as you’re not letting food go to waste that the starving would never get to eat in the first place. It also makes your mother very happy which is good because you will eventually learn that when mother is unhappy everyone is unhappy!!! You grow older and develop your social skills. This part of your life is diametrically opposed to what you’ve been taught. To be socially acceptable in this new environment you have to get Wasted. This primarily involves stuffing your mouth with bilious liquids and food of dubious origin until you can barf an awe inspiring distance!! If you are lucky enough to have a girl friend her facial expressions are directly proportional to your barfing distance. That is one meaningful way of knowing if you are socially acceptable to your same gendered friends. It is also helpful socially to get together with your Best Buds and lie like hell to each other to the point that whatever you hold dear becomes "fact" (The Big Lie) in our lives. Later on when we become socially and economically obsolete we get together with our Best Buds, drink lots of beer when mixed with a lack of energy, coupled with a tendency to let it all hang out, and we’re mentally too old to care you find out that we are all liars, are stuck in the same boat, and nobody has any solutions!! On the old Bell curve the egotistical, immodest, flamboyant Wasters are at the top 1/6th of the old Bell Curve, the bottom 1/6th never clued in to the concept of Wasted and the middle 2/3rds of the Wasted muddled through as usual!!

3 Again

I don’t want to bore anyone any more than necessary but away back when in one of my blogs I was advancing the theory that this universe is based on the number 3. For instance, we have 3 dimensions, length, width and height. Three strikes and you’re out. Things, good or bad, usually happen in 3’s. Most discussions have 3 major points. Traffic lights usually have 3 lights, red for stop, yellow for caution and green for go. You are usually given 3 chances to accomplish something. Most people can only remember 3 things on a list. The triangle, consisting of 3 sides is the strongest form of construction. The people you know in your life can be classified as acquaintances, friends and soulmates. If you organize a speech, tell them what you are going to say, say it and tell them what you said. I was staring at a list of whole numbers which are numbers that don’t have any fractions such as 337, 59 ,149, 7919 and it hit me. If you chose any random whole number such as 337, 59, 149 or 7919 and do the following something interesting happens:
337: Add the digits in the number 337 which are (3+3+7=13). Subtract 13 from 337 (337-13 = 324). Add the digits in 324 (3+2+4 = 9). The square root of 9 is 3 or (3X3=9)
59: Add the digits in the number 59 which are (5+9=14). Subtract 14 from 59 (59-14 = 45). Add the digits in 45 (4+5) = 9). The square root of 9 is 3 or (3X3=9).
149: Add the digits in the number 149 which are (1+4+9=14). Subtract 14 from 149 (149-14 = 135). Add the digits in 135 (1+3+5 = 9). The square root of 9 is 3 or (3X3=9).
7919: Add the digits in the number 7919 which are (7+9+1+9=26). Subtract 26 from 7919 (7919-26 = 7893). Add the digits in 7893 (7+8+9+3 = 27). Add the digits in 27 (2+7 = 9). The square root of 9 is 3 or (3X3=9).
Interesting Wot???

Magical 9

I’ve been trying to find a shortcut for calculating primes without much luck. All I’ve managed to discover so far is that a possible prime number has 1, 3, 7, and 9 as its’ last digit. In the process, I have discovered something fascinating about the number 9. As a matter of blog history away back when I was advancing the theory that this universe is based on the number 3. For instance, we have 3 dimensions, length, width and height. Three strikes and you’re out. Things, good or bad, usually happen in 3’s. Most discussions have 3 major points. Traffic lights usually have 3 lights, red for stop, yellow for caution and green for go. You are usually given 3 chances to accomplish something. Most people can only remember 3 things on a list. The triangle, consisting of 3 sides is the strongest form of construction. The people you know in your life can be classified as acquaintances, friends and soulmates. If you organize a speech, tell them what you are going to say, say it and tell them what you said. On to number 9. If you select any random whole number greater than 9 such as 18, 1000, 46 or 101 for example and do the following you will always end up with 9.
Number 18 has the digits 1 and 8, 1+8 = 9. Subtract 9 from 18 (18 - 9 = 9) (3X3 =9).
Number 1000 has the digits 1 and 3 zeros, 1+0+0+0 = 1. Subtract 1 from 1000 (1000 - 1 = 999), (9 +9 +9 =27), (2+7 = 9) (3X3 =9).
Number 46 has the digits 4 and 6, 4+6 = 10. Subtract 10 from 46 (46 - 10 = 36), (3+6=9), (3X3 =9).
Number 101 has the digits 1,0,1 and 1+0+1=2. Subtract 2 from 101 (101 - 2 = 99), (9+9=18), (1+8=9) (3X3 =9).
Try it yourself. You will find that the number 3 is the root of our number system based on 10.

Finding Primes Using The Number 3

Away back when in one of my blogs I was advancing the theory that this universe is based on the number 3. For instance, we have 3 dimensions, length, width and height. Three strikes and you’re out. Things, good or bad, usually happen in 3’s. Most discussions have 3 major points. Traffic lights usually have 3 lights, red for stop, yellow for caution and green for go. You are usually given 3 chances to accomplish something. Most people can only remember 3 things on a list. The triangle, consisting of 3 sides is the strongest form of construction. The people you know in your life can be classified as acquaintances, friends and soulmates. If you organize a speech, tell them what you are going to say, say it and tell them what you said. Anyway, I got to thinking about primes again. Prime numbers are numbers that you can only divided evenly by themselves and one. For instance 17 is a prime number. It can only be divided evenly by itself and 1. If you divide 17 by any number that precedes it the answer is a fraction (Ex: 17/4 = 4 ¼ ). If you look at a table of prime numbers you will see their last digit is a 1, 3, 7 or 9 once you get beyond 1 digit numbers such as 5 or 2.

Finding Primes Using The Number 3

A prime number usually ends in 1, 3, 7 or 9.
Total the digits in the number ending in 1, 3, 7 or 9 (ex. 677 has the digits (6,7,7,) when totaled = 20 (6 +7 +7 = 20)
Divide the digit total (20) by 3,
If the answer contains a fraction (20/3 = 6.666666667) 677 is a prime.
If the answer doesn’t contain a fraction the number is not a prime. For instance 27 isn’t a prime because (2+7=9) and 9 divided by 3 is an even number ( 9/3 =3.)

Prime =11
Total = 2
Total / 3 = 0.666666667
Prime =13
Total = 4
Total / 3 = 1.333333333
Prime =17
Total = 8
Total/3= 2.666666667
Prime = 19
Total = 10
Total /3 = 3.333333333
Prime = 23
Total = 5
Total/3 = 1.666666667
Prime = 29
Total = 11
Total/3= 3.666666667
Prime = 31
Total = 4
Total/3 = 1.333333333
Prime = 37
Total = 10
Total / 3 = 3.333333333
Prime = 41
Total = 5
Total/3 = 1.666666667
Prime =43
Total = 7
Total/3 = 2.333333333
Prime= 47
Total = 11
Total/3 = 3.666666667

Walking On Water

Everyone is going to get it in the ear at some point in their life. We all live on a Sine Wave. One time we’re at the top of our game and can do no wrong and the other time we are in the trough and can do no right. Even God had a bad day and had to use a flood to correct things. If someone likes you and you walk on water then your praises are sung from on high. If someone doesn’t like you and you walk on water then they say "You’re damned lucky you didn’t get your feet wet!!!!" Same you, but different impressions!!!"

Would You Marry This Man ?????

1 No visible means of support.
2 Travels the country with a group of men and one woman of questionable virtue.
3 Sponges off strangers who always seem willing to give him a night’s lodging.
4 Seems to be illiterate as he never writes anything down.
5 Likes to give speeches that attracts crowds.
6 Has the ability to do tricks.
7 Speaks of my house but never gives the location.
8 Talks of things to come but it all seems to be pie in the sky.
9 Gave up a perfectly good career to wander around the country.
10 The perfect con man. Seems to be able to talk people into anything.
Who is this man???? Jesus Christ!! God just has to have a sense of humour!!!

Dullsville

I’ve a new appreciation of anyone that has to grind out 1200 words a day and still manages to get paid for it!!
My observation is that most people who occupy the center of the old Bell Curve can summarize their lives in about 3 e-mails that are each ½ a page in length. I’m one of those dull people in my three dimensional existence. The problem with blogging is that it is an open forum that anyone can read. There is a possibility that someone might read your blog and know you. If this happens you are then forced to explain something that you thought was brilliantly written at the time but makes absolutely no sense now. Therefore you have a choice. You can write about how many times you did this or that or take a flyer and write from the soul. I prefer the soul route. That way, I can write about anything that interests me and not have to run the risk of having to explain anything to anyone which I appear to be doing right now. I also have to have standards which can generally be summed up as not bringing any harm to anyone. Although I’m dull, I still like to find thoroughly intellectually interesting people that are full of fun in spite of any adventure involving them at the moment!! I guess hope springs eternal!! I’ve a philosophical and psychic bend mixed with a dry sense of humor. I also have the ability to sometimes "sense" people. Fortunately, I’m sufficiently dull that if anyone tripped over me I still wouldn’t be noticed!! If, on the other hand, we eyeballed each other and had a soul experience it would be interesting to say the least!! I can’t actually see anyone’s soul in terms of being able to describe it. I just have the ability to sometimes look through the door. It’s a powerful experience and is very close to seeing the face of God. It usually scares the hell out of me. I always turn away before the other person realizes what is happening. This life may not be much in terms of what people call success but at least I know what I’ve got!! (:-p)

Three Really Scary Things

Everyone has things in life that really scares the bejabbers out of them. Most of these fears involve the physical you and very seldom involve your soul. In fact lots of people don’t think they have a soul because it doesn’t seem to have anything to do with their three dimensional life. Oh sure, if you are active in a religion there is talk about saving your soul but that is where it begins and ends. Nothing is concrete. Most people couldn’t even write a description of their soul. Acquaintances and friends involve the physical you and your soul involves your soulmate. This is why a lot of relationships begin and end with "Let’s Be Friends" or its’ variation because your two mysterious individual souls have no common ground. You have a symbiotic relationship between your physical body and your soul. Neither can exist in this Vale Of Tears without the other. Your soul exists forever and your physical body exists for about 78 to 84 years on average. You don’t know where the soul lies because your 3 dimensional persona has no relationship to your soul except that they occupy the same relative space. Your timeless soul is being carried around by your body. Everyone modifies their body and / or attitude to cope with their adventures / life experiences but nothing is done about your soul. There are, perhaps, three really scary things in life:
1 Getting married to someone who you don’t know beyond a physical description and some soul guesswork.
2 Being faced with the real possibility of dying.
3 Looking into someone’s eyes, suddenly seeing their soul and realizing you have absolutely no control over the process.
I have experienced that out of control / scared feeling when I have eyeballed someone, friend or stranger, and suddenly realized that I’m looking at a timeless soul. I immediately turn away because it could be extremely embarrassing if the other person picked up what was happening. The opening of a soul is why sometimes it's the hardest looking into someone’s eyes that you love or even someone you don't. If their eyes are open at the same time it's almost as if you both know that something behind your eyes is out of your control and by inference one of the scariest processes you can endure. It is sort of like looking into the windows of the eye and seeing a small infinitesimal hint of God’s power. It is times like this that I definitely feel that I don’t ever want to piss off God let alone have him / her really get mad at me!!!

Add Hormones And Stir

This post is a little off color so if you are particularly sensitive I suggest you stop here. I was walking through the woods the other day and spotted a hole in the ground. When boys are young they can’t resist finding a stick and poking it in a hole and stirring it around. Little boys must be wired for that sort of thing. There isn’t anything particular being thought about before the poking of the stick in the hole, stirring it around and no gratification afterward except the gratification of curiosity being satisfied. Time progresses, hormones appear and boys start to think about poking their own stick in any available hole and stirring it around which can cause the fairer sex much consternation as various blogs will reveal. More time passes, the hormones disappear, and the interest of poking any stick, personal or otherwise in any hole approaches the satisfaction of going to work on Monday morning.

Ole Holla

My dear Ole Granny has asked me to blog some information on her business. You don’t know my Granny, but she operates a micro brewery commonly know in the 1920’s - 1930’s as a Still. Granny may be old but she sure is up to date. She was at the hair dressers the other day and was reading one of them there dating magazines. Granny is in the market so to speak seeing that Grandfather has been dead for nigh on 40 year and Granny ain’t had no action!! Anyway back to the story!! Granny was reading that the new thing is to go to one of those dating parlors and interview a potential mate in 10 minutes and then rotate to the next one. Granny tell me that if it takes 10 minutes you aren’t focused on the problem!! Granny being a progressive business woman suddenly had a brain wave!! She got to wondering what would one do if you interviewed someone, rejected him or her and then had a change of heart?? Granny realized that you have to have courage to go back and a little liquid courage is not out of line in the dating context. Granny got to thinking and she suddenly realized her booze business could be expanded through the development of a drink called "Ole Holla". Granny is also good at marketing. Since you want to appear "natural" in the dating scene she thought the marketing tag line should be a "Holla back guy" or a "Holla back gal". In fact, Granny say the more Holla you do the more action you get. Granny tell me she shore does appreciate my help as she ain’t into that sort of thing but business is business!!

What The Hell

We all exist in 3 dimensions including Time in the real world. The people that surround us live in 3 dimensions including Time. Psychologically speaking, however, the people surrounding us live in the 1st , 2nd or 3rd dimension including Time. The 1st dimensional people in our lives are acquaintances that we never really get to know. They are the largest category. We never get beyond the phase of politeness. Friends come in 2 dimensions and although it seems to be a putdown describing them in this way it is surprising what we can endlessly draw in two dimensions. Just look at any two dimensional Geometry Book!! Soulmates are harder to define. They occupy the 3rd dimension plus Time as in Timeless. For some unknown reason, people’s souls are able to connect with other people’s souls. Soul to soul contact is the ultimate reality!! If it should happen to you, you want to be with your Soul person even though another 2 dimensional friend is more fascinating, exciting etc.. When you’re young and full of hormones the greater attraction lies with the 2nd dimensional friend because our species has to survive. This is the reason that 99% of us marry our best friend because we have never met a soulmate. Unfortunately, the hormones go, life in 2 dimensions becomes dull, gravity takes over and everything sags. One day you look at each other in 2 dimensions and although you may say "What the hell." you don’t have the energy, prospects, or means to do anything about it!!

The Law Of Unforeseen Consequences

I got to thinking about Free Will and The Law Of Unforeseen Consequences. Free Will is the ultimate form of democracy. Each of us can do pretty much as we please providing we don’t interfere with someone else’s enjoyment of life. The Law Of Unforeseen Consequences or The Butterfly Effect arises because our personal decision to do something causes a change in future events or a different path to be taken. There are lots of examples: Adam’s decision to eat the apple caused mankind to be kicked out of the Garden Of Eden. Lots has been written on our choice to invade Iraq. Opinions exist on both sides as to the importance / dumbness of that decision. Sometimes we get dragged into things that have nothing to do with us. Millions of people lost their lives in WW11 because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time. If Free Will didn’t exist what would we do with our time??? Some people have said that they are not interested in going to Heaven because it would be too, too boring if Free Will didn’t exist. Perhaps if we didn’t have any havoc in our life none of us would have any use for God. For instance most of us are only interested in God if we can’t get out of our personal poo under our own steam. Perhaps a little grief in our lives is good for the soul. No grief, no soul development. Interesting thought!!

A Real Weapon Of Mass Destruction

I came across something really scary. It seems an individual has built an Internet connected platform with a camera and rifle which can be used by a hunter in any part of the world to hunt animals. The implications of this development are mind boggling. It means that anyone, anywhere, can cause mass havoc, by constructing a camera connected to a gun on a miniature platform or even mounted on wheels that can be fired from anywhere in the world because Internet connections can also be wireless. I hope someone has a solution.

A New Way To Calculate The Number Of Primes

I got to thinking about Prime Numbers Again. A Prime Number is any number that can only be divided evenly by itself and 1. For instance the number 11 is a Prime Number because it can only be divided evenly by 1 or 11 without leaving any fractions. One of the problems associated with Prime Numbers is trying to figure out how many prime numbers come before any randomly chosen number. For instance, if we randomly chose the number 12, how many prime numbers come before 12??? The most popular method is taking any number (X) or 12 in this instance and dividing it by the number of times 2.718281828 or "e" as it is popularly known can be multiplied to make 12 (Ln 12). For instance Ln(12) is 2.48490665. In other words if we took 2.718281828 and multiplied it 2.48490665 times (2.718281828 X 2.718281828 X (2.718281828 X .48490665)) we would get 12.
Therefore (12/Ln(12)) or (12 / 2.48490665) = 4.829155253
This number 4.829155253 rounded to the next whole number (no fractions) is 5. Therefore there are 5 prime numbers before random number 12. The prime numbers before 12 are 1,2,3,5,7,11, or 6 in number. The formula appears to be quite accurate which it is for low numbers. The problem arises because as the numbers increase the Prime Numbers become less and less and this formula starts to really get inaccurate.
Here is a new method:
If you examine a Prime Number Table you will see that the number in the farthest right column of any prime number greater than 7 contains the digits 1,3,7,9. For example 11, 13, 17, 19.
To calculate the number of Primes up to that number take any random number and multiply by 10. For example (18 X 10 = 180) Add 1 or 3 or 7 or 9 to the random number multiplied by 10. For example I chose (180 + 1= 181).
Calculating Number Of Primes Up To number 181, the far right column ending in 1.
1 Divide 181 by Ln(181) =181 / 5.198497031 = 34.81775577.
2 Round (181 / 5.198497031 = 35 to the next whole number
3 Add the number found in the units position of 181 (1) to Round number (35) equals (35 + 1) 36. There are actually 42 primes up to 181.
This result may look a little ridiculous but tests have shown that the total number of primes up to any number will be within a range of +/- 7 numbers of the total number of prime numbers up to that number which is more accurate overall than the present system.
For the mathematically inclined:
Calculating Number Of Primes Up To number X with unit ending 1,3,5,7,9:
1 Divide X by Ln(X).
2 Round (X/Ln(X))
3 Add the number found in the units position of the number (1,3,7,9) to Round(X/Ln(X)).
4 The resulting number will be dead on or within +/- 7 numbers of the total number of prime numbers up to that number.

Learning How To Be Successful

In my blog "Daddy’s Advice" I mentioned that dear old dad said "If you want to be successful, study someone who is successful." After looking around I decided that the only truly successful long term person was God. God is approachable through prayer. Unfortunately, most of us only use prayer when we are in deep personal do do. If we aren’t in deep personal do do, then we use prayer to ask God to give us something that we really don’t need such as a new car or help winning the lottery. God is like everyone else, he’s not interested in giving you something for nothing unless it is going to teach you a valuable lesson like don’t do that sort of thing. God is willing to listen to you, providing you are willing to listen to him. God is something like your parents, he is not going to give you an immediate answer. God sometimes doesn’t give a verbal answer which is equivalent to your parent’s unspoken "No" so don’t get all whiny about it. God teaches us to listen. Sometimes God’s answer comes through a casual conversation with another person. Of course, people say a lot of things to you, so you have to be able to separate the wheat from the chaff. Sometimes, God starts a series of events which will take you to your goal providing you’re paying enough attention to get on board. Sometimes this series of events starts long after you have given up waiting for whatever you thought was important at the time. It is important therefore to pay attention as well as listen. Sometimes in your life, things get a little confusing, so God might just let you know he is looking after you. Sort of call you up to see how you’re doing. God tends to look after you when you do something stupid and arranges events to get you out of trouble. All this, of course, demands that you be basically trainable and constantly listening, thinking, observing and evaluating the day’s events. Does this sound vaguely familiar?????

Soulmates

Got thinking about soulmates again. In our 3 dimensional existence people come as enemies, acquaintances and friends. Enemies are people that don’t like you for some reason. Enemies are people that are hard to spot. Their reasons for not liking you don’t have to be rational. Maybe you remind them of someone they had to put up with.
Acquaintances are those people that respond to you with the personality of a brick wall. In fact, when you think about it, a brick wall has more personality. Hell, maybe that’s why you want to change your house wall to stucco. Friends are a bit harder to define. Mostly, friends are people you like, but not known well enough to spill your guts to. On the other hand, sometimes you have a friend to whom you are willing to reveal everything. A really, really, good friend can be mistaken for a soulmate if you aren’t careful. Soulmates are a different kettle of fish. Soulmates involve the soul. Souls are timeless and according to some philosophies / religions , go on forever. There can be young souls and old souls. At some time in the process of body creation a soul becomes part of our 3 dimensional being. Due to the foufou in your 3 dimensional life sometimes your soul bears no resemblance to what most people recognize in you 3 dimensionally speaking. This is why I find it somewhat amusing here in the ‘hood that some people think a 10 minute date masquerading as an interview in which you "reveal" yourself will find you a soulmate. Jeez, you can’t even find a good employee in 10 minutes!! My observation is there are several soulmates for each of us. One soulmate you will marry and other soulmates will add something vital to our life. The "rub" to misquote Shakespeare is to find them. A soulmate usually comes into your life when your brain is in neutral, your 3 dimensional persona is idling, and your soul is emoting. So the operative words are disconnect, chill , emote.!!!

Finding True Love

How do we find true love???? The problem lies in the fact that we all exist in a 3 dimensional environment and lie like hell to each other. Immediate love in a 3 dimensional environment is chiefly concerned with perpetuating us. Therefore the men look for the most gorgeous girl they can find and lie like hell. The girls, on the other hand, gild the lily, and look for the most nurturing (an oxymoron if ever there was one) male. Someone who looks like he possesses a good set of genes, has the ability to earn a living, has enough other attributes so that the girl’s friends don’t think she is nutso, etc., etc.. Unfortunately, over time gravity gets its’ grip on you and everything sags. Suddenly you wake up one morning and you don’t recognize the creature beside you. Plastic surgery doesn’t help. If you happen to have lucked out, True Love remains. True Love is soul based and occasionally, just occasionally, two compatible, loving Souls find each other. Thank God for Random Chance!!!

Morality = Faith = Mother’s Values

I thought it was interesting that most people have concluded that Bush won the election based on "morality". I don’t think that morality had anything to do with it except in the peripheral sense. I’m inclined to believe that the election was won because 9/11 generated a crisis of confidence in the American Psyche that has yet to be psychologically recognized. Let’s face it, when something physically / psychologically happens it usually scares the bejabbers out of you, and the next thing you know you are returning to something loosely summarized as Faith. Nations are no different. Bush linked morality to your mother’s down home values. Kerry didn’t and Kerry lost. Faith doesn’t automatically resolve things like the deficit, the Israeli Palestine conflict, or the North Korean nuclear problem. Most people want to take the simple route by asking / demanding through prayer that God takes ownership of the problem. I don’t think that God is going to take ownership of the problem in this instance because he gave us the brains to solve the problem. God may be open for questions should we need advice. God also gave our nation the means to accomplish the task. So quit whining and get a grip!!

God Ain’t Never Promised A Rose Garden Down Here

I got to thinking about Lions and Tigers this morning. A lot of Christians got ate by those things during Roman Entertainment Day in ancient times. One of the popular tenets / advertisements of Christianity is that if you accept Christ into your life you get the equivalent of a Rose Garden. What the Brothers and Sisters forgot to mention is that the Rose Garden is reserved for the Soul and not for our 3 dimensional existence. Oh sure, there are a few Christians that accepted God and seem to be doing quite well for themselves but the majority of us Christians have to do the grunt work down here first. Most of us are just Privates in God’s Army. It’s quite fascinating to me that God only wrote one thing down and that is the 10 Commandments. I personally have written scads of stuff, however, God and I have one thing in common. People generally ignore the 10 Commandments and people generally ignore the scads of stuff I write. It is all very depressing for the both of us. God had to send the Flood to clean up the mess. I’ve been told that I have to clean up my own mess. Sometimes I’ve even had a bit of a flood. If you believe in God then Jesus is part of the package. Jesus doesn’t appear to have written anything down including crib notes for his speeches. Maybe God dictated the speech to Jesus as Jesus made the speech. Sort of an early version of lip synching. The people, excluding the disciples, wrote their chapters 100’s of years after Jesus’ death. Their writings often reflected the social problems / culture of the period and their solutions were written invoking Jesus’ name and prestige. Sort of reminds me of politics. You’d kind of think that God doesn’t care. On the other hand, God isn’t stupid contrary to popular thought. Your 3 dimensional eyeballed existence is going to end someday and we all get to stand in front of God. I have a recurring dream that God opens my Life Book and after reading my total life’s accomplishments in ½ a page, looks me in the eye (or the soul equivalent) and says: "Geez you were a major screw up and you don’t listen either!!"